Studying for and sitting the TCRG exam last September in Atlanta was easily one of the most difficult and stressful things I’ve done, maybe ever. The 5 part exam was expensive (not just the exam itself, but also the cost of travelling to Atlanta), but it also required a huge amount of studying and preparation. I spent months learning the music, and the ceilis and the choreography I needed. Even with all my hard work, I didn’t expect to pass the exam outright. As much as I studied, I never truly felt ready, I was always second guessing myself and had such a hard time keeping all the information in my brain.
So, when I got the email letting me know I was unsuccessful (yes, they send you an email simply saying if you were successful or unsuccessful) I wasn’t surprised. Disappointed, yes, but surprised, no.
A week later, I got the full results and was so thrilled to learn I would only need to retake one portion. I thought for sure I’d need to retake two. Thankfully, I passed the written portion, my biggest stressor. I will just need to retake the ceili teaching portion at some point in the near future.
I was eligible to retake the exam as early as this month, but the truth is, I don’t have the money to retake the exam right now. Not only that, but once I finished my final exam section I did a major brain dump and it feels like everything I spent so much time learning has completely left my brain. I haven’t really thought about the ceilis in ages. I have a lot on my plate at work, and two friends and I have started our own dance school, right now teaching adults. I’m hoping that just getting back into dance slowly, and by gaining more confidence in teaching I will have an easier time re-learning all those damn dances. I’ve also got some financial work to do on my credit card again before I will allow myself to spend the 319 Euro and whatever travel expenses are needed to retake the exam.
Fingers crossed, yeah?
I spent quite a bit of time feeling sad about the whole thing. Even though I wasn’t surprised, it was still really hard to feel like a bit of a failure. Not only that, but I had SO MANY people to tell who didn’t completely understand the scope of the exam in the first place, and dealing with the sympathy was kind of overwhelming too.
But, the good news is, starting a new school, and getting excited again about Irish dance mean I’ll have more Jig to add to my Jog here.







